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So today was one of he worst days of my life but one of the best for me and Jeremy. I had some issues with someone and he stuck by me. He didnt run away like most guys would have done. He faced it and that makes me happy. My issues for the most part are scary and those of you who do know I thank you for stcking by me and caring about me!! I appreciate your friendship more than anything in the world right now. Well Im going post on ym new Lj...lata playas!! bye bye
GO CHECK OUT MY NEW LJ...."dimples25"
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[04 Apr 2005|11:30am] |
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So my Saturday all together was kinda boring. After work I came home and went to a lil family crawfish boil. I didnt eat too much...I cant taste anything. Im sick. Then u went home to sleep and everything went down hill from there. I had a few things changed in my room and then after I changed them to my own taste. I finally left ym hosue ALONE and went to Kelsey's to hang out with her. I took my Dad's truck out b/c my mom wanted me to. [Mission Impossible Lori over here] HAHAHA. We just kind of drove around the Westbank calling people up. Jeremy had gone to the movies and I was supposed to go but I ran late so I didnt. We met him at his house and went hang with Chip Jeff Jessie John and some ladies at Bennigan's. I almost killed us..hehe. We left at around 1:30 and I went drop Kelsey off at home b/c shes a youngen and I went hang out with jeremy for the rest of the night. I have fun with him.
Sunday was the crawfish boil at Mo's. I woke up around 11 and Kaci and I went to the mall. I miss her sooo much and it was really nice hanging out with her!! Then we came home I showered hung out with my mom a little and went to Kelsey's. We got to the party an hour late and NO jeremy Im not always late!! I didnt eat any crawfish but we had fun. I got cake all in my face from someone...wonder who?? All up my nose and in my hair but hte cake was good no matter where it was. I played horse shoes and I SUCKED!! I only made one point but my team PREVAILED!! Lance and I beat Jeff and Jeremy. YESSSS!! It was fun. Everyone was drinking and it was getting really funny! We decided to leave around 7 and went to Aurora to hang with Chip so Jeremy could get more free drinks...haha loser! I got to meet Annie. Shes so nice. I accidently called Jeremy by the wrong name and he wasnt very happy about it. Actually he was pissed but he said sorry and got over it. I had to drive Jeremy and I back to his house...the boy was drunk. Then I had to wait for him to sober up to bring me to Kelsey's so I could get my car. Sunday kicked ass!!! Im soooo happy I got to know all of these people!! Life is going pretty damn well even with all of this shit happening.
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[02 Apr 2005|08:28pm] |
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So last night was soo much FUNNN! If you all knew theses guys you would completely understand. PICTURE THIS: Chip Beery Jeremy and I in Jeremy's truck driving to TJ's form Aurora....haha! We had fun! I had never been to TJ's s for me it was a neat experience. It was different than I had thought. DUMB ASS me wore shorts there and in my defense it had been HOT all day so how was I supposed to know it would be cold at night. (I had brought my clothes to work and then went to Jeremy's straight from work adn showered and what nots so I had no long pants to wear). But anyways I as only cold for a little while until I got some liquor in me...hehe. Yeah i know!! Beery turned out to be a great guy. He had to talk to me all night because Jeremy kept leaving me with him. We had some gooooood conversations though and we had fun. Chip and his ole' gambling ass pimpin self didnt even leave with us he stayed with the ladies. I had so much fun. maybe it was the "Orlando Magic" talking but I really opened up to these guys. I dont really remeber the whole convo between Beery and I since it did last all night long but I think it was hilarious thinking back on it. I cant wait to go out with them again.
Hey any gils lookin for a hottie..because Collin wants a lady? haha Jeremy!!
okay well thats all Im going take a shower. bye bye
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[31 Mar 2005|11:18am] |
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So yesterday turned out to be a wonderful day. I found out I got a 100A on my Sociology paper that took me like 5 hours to write. I was VERRRRRY happy about it. I tried really hard on it and Im proud of myself. That pretty much made my whole day great! After school Leanne and I went shopping at Lakeside but nothing at Abercrombie fit me...the skirts I liked were all too big for me and they didnt have any smaller sizes than a 2 left so i couldnt buy anything there. American eagle must have started making their clothes bigger b/c I couldnt even fit into a 0 in their shorts...i was upset i really wanted those shorts..guess i gotta gain weight!! haha NEGATIVE! Then I left there scooped Scott up form work and went to Esplanade to Hollister. I bought a cute outfit there..white shorts!! yeah got me some hot pants...haha! After my whole adventure I didnt spend much money only like $80 and I got shorts 3 shirts and a pair of flip flops. heck i was happy. Scott and I had fun until his walking around incident but we got together and talked the rest over and he now get what I mean and that makes me soo happy!
( My experience last night... )
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[30 Mar 2005|11:16am] |
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So you know how sometimes you take a look at the people around you..I mean really look. I dont mean at your friends and your lfie and all just random strangers. Im sitting in the libary for 30 minutes and I have to say Ive been doing that the whole time Ive been in here. For one I feel like a big ugly duckling...Im surrounded by all of these really cute Asian chicks. Theyre always dresses so cute. Why is it that when i get up in the morning to make it to my 8 o'clock classes i al;ways look like shit and they look perfect. theyre clothes are always adorbale and theyre little perfect figures make me mad. I want that...I want to look cute everyday. I guess i could dress cute everyday but that would require me to wake up earlier and well we all know thats not happening. i guess wearing make-up prolly woudlnt hurt either. I dont think ive put on anything more than mascara since my Senior Prom. Im just not a makeup girl. It takes too long. I guess some people have it and some people dont. damn man that sucks...wish i had it!
I am going shopping today maybe that can help me out. I just have the need to buy me some clothes. This weekend was REALLY stressful and it doesnt seem to be getting any easier so I NEED to shop!! I havent eaten anything besides like 3 ravioli yesterday at 11. I just cant eat. Im hungry but my body cant swallow anything. I know why...its the stress. I always get like this when im really stressed. At the end of my senior year I was so stressed I lost like 5 lbs. Goodness knows if it melted off the fat on my legs Id be happy but I know its not healthy. Im sure Leanne is going to force me to eat today at the mall. I think i will get a smoothie that should work. SWell let me go find Leanne and go to Chemistry. bye bye.
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[30 Mar 2005|07:54am] |
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I really want to thank everyone for their support through all of this mess. It really feels good to know that I have so many friends who are willing to listen. Most of you I havent really talked to in years and it feels wonderful to know that despite that you will always be there for me. So THANK YOU to everyone that I have talked to or who has offered their shoulder to me.
On a brighter note, Scott finally got what I was saying. He figured me out after 3 1/2 years together. He realizes that this is about me. This break up is not about us mending this horrible relationship b/c for the most part what we had was good minus a few details. I think he knows that its about me and doing my own thing. I hope he understands this anyway. He says he does. I dont want to hurt him anymore than I already have.
So tonight Im going to a SOCCER game in Harahan to watch Finkel play. I am really excited about it!! I havent been to a game in forever. I wont know anyone there though. Im sure that will be a little odd (sitting all by myself) but its soccer and I will prevail. Man o man Im going shopping when I get out of school. I want a new skirt maybe a whole new outfit. My mom is taking me shopping for jeans soon..YEAH FOR MOMS!! I need to spend money soo bad but I know Im on a budget. Hollister watch out today Ashley is coming to town..haha.
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[29 Mar 2005|08:59am] |
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So we finished our whole conversation last night. By the end of it I think he understood why I as doing it. I know that he doesnt want it though but I think he will back me on it b/c he knows Im so passionate about it. We decided to just be friends for a while. He bought me a dozen roses today. It was sweet of him and I liked them very much. A little expensive for just friends but I understand it. I liked them thank you.
Last night I was invited to go to a soccer game Wednesday night. I LOVE soccer for those of you who dont know. Scott and I are going car shopping during the day I think and then SOCCER soccer soccer that night!! I havent been to a soccer game since my brother played for Hahnville. Man I used to love going to those soccer games every Saturday, they were exciting!! Maybe it was b/c there were boys there...I dont know?? But I liked them. Kaci remember Hammond and the Strawberry Cup>?!? Man o man nothing beats those days. I miss that...
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I feel like absolute shit! Scott and I got together today to talk over our situation and it only made things worse. I so badly just wanted to grab him and kiss him and say nevermind I want to be with you but I know that I cant. I ahve to be strong and do this on my own. I want to be in his arms right now but i know I shouldnt be. Theres so many things I need to figure out on my own and I cant do it with him. i wish i could but I cant. i love him so much. I dont want to lose him. I pray that i dont. oh man let me go finish my crying before dinner. This sucks! God I want things to get better...
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[25 Mar 2005|12:23am] |
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So life is going pretty damn well right now. Im happy with the way things are going. Ive been in a wonderful mood ever since I came back from Florida, I cant tell you why b/c I dont know but I cant say I mind. Scott and I have been spending alot more time together and I love it. I dont think we have gotten in a fight in a while which is good. Today was a GRREAT day!! I slept at Scott's house last night and woke up and came home around 9. Then I brought him to work...got stuck in traffic for hours and came home. Then went meet Dave and Dani at Quizno's and went with dave to Best Buy. Then came home and went to work for a amazing day of work. I had alot of fun. One poor girl got fired and I felt bad but it was funny....I know Im a bad person. I got a raise...YAY for me!!!!!! Im really happy about that and I got my 1st paycheck...whoo-hoo. Im really happy I took a job at Mo's I really like it there. I work again tomorrow night and Saturday morning. Im thinking of going to BR this Saturday if yall arent busy..let me know okay?!?
Well let me go to sleep b/c I gots work tomorrow. OH oh oh I think I might go car shopping tomorrow morning...who wants to come????? Someone PUHLEASE!! Well nighty night yall!!
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[21 Mar 2005|10:22pm] |
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So we got home from Ponce de Leon today. We werent exactly in Panama City but like 20 minutes from it so it is easier to say panama then Ponce De Leon b/c well NO one knows where that is! If you didnt the Fountain of Youth is there and a shit load of springs to dive in. Personally we stayed at Vortex Springs. We decided to camp out b/c we thought it would be fun and we were RIGHT it was. We didnt leave until 7:00 Thursday night so we got there at like 2 and ended up sleeping in the Wal-Mart parking lot...haha but somehow I was VERRRY comfortable. We woke up early left there to visit Lessie. Left her house and went to "Falling Waters State Park" to see Florida's largest waterfall. It was really cool. Dave and I crosses some boundaries...hehe but we made it back safely. We wanted to get some cool pics.and we did. Then we went to Vortex Springs and set our stuff up. swam a little. ate out at this AWESOME local joint. made friends with our camping neighbors and went to sleep at 6<-yeah we know its sad!! Woke up early. Danielle and I cooked breakfast every morning...welcome to Dashly's!! haha. Scott got half of his certification dives in [FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DONT KNOW THE WHOLE POINT OF THIS TRIP WAS SCOTT TO DO HIS CERTIFICATION DIVES FOR HIS SCUBA CLASSES] Basically the whole weekend was pretty routine. wake up girls cook boys get fire wood and make fire. then we eat. boys dive. eat again. play around. boys dive again. then maybe a swim. eat dinner. sit around fire. then bed. And thats how it was every day. I really enjoyed getting away from everything and everyone. All the drama kills me here!! I love my boyfriend very much. He was very good to me this weekend....except that one comment that was a little harsh but im over it now and I realioze what he meant and I know how I took it but it still hurt. Im ready for our next adventure. I will post pics when I have a chance but right now Im goign crash out b/c i got work tomorrow at 4 and I think I might just sleep until 2. hehe. night night.
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Guess whos going to Panama tomorrow!? ME!!! Yeah!! Man i cant wait to get the fuck out of Louisiana.
So I was thinking today really hard about leaving Xavier and Im really thinking about doing it. I just really dont like it there. Ive talked to like 5 of my friends there who say theyre doing the same. Xavier just doesnt have a good vibe. I need to look at other majors and see what i would want to do if I do transfer. I dont even know where I would transfer to. I just know I dont like it there. Man that sucks b/c it was perfect for me too. Well shit happens for a reason and fate will take me where Im supposed to be I guess!!! Well now Im off to go do homework. bye bye
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Work was once again awesome! We were busier tonight than last week but not too busy b/c of the freakin stormin ass rain!! The rushes kind of came and went so i got more time to talk to me fellow employees and get to know them. YAY for Mo's and Jess for getting me the job.
I didnt appreciate that phone call after I got off of work tonight.What the hell is that all about? I really dont have time right now to deal with it so call me later.
Im tired. I think Im going to take a shower and hit the sack. I have a big day tomorrow. I have school then I HAVE to start my Sociology paper b/c well I have to turn it in tomorrow. I hate sociology.i really dont think it would be a bad class if my teacher wasnt always talking about "The white man bringing the black man down!" and yeah my teacher hes white. Aint that some shit? Well let me go shower b/c I smell of pizza and lasagna ands the dog keeps attacking me. Night night world!
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I had my 2nd calculus test today. I dont think I failed it. At the least I have a 60 D<--Thats so sad that I would say that but unfortunately its true.
Im happy with where Im at right now in life. I have pretty darn great friends and my boyfriend is freakin wonderful. Im so lucky to have him in ym life. I think i would go crazy if i didnt have him to bitch at all the time...haha. I love you honey! But dont worry I get my fair share of bitching too but somehow it doesnt bother either of us b/c its just the way we work. We bitch at each other and then 2 secs later were over it! I like that we work that way. i get alot of things off my chest and he doesnt really get mad at me. Im glad were not that old dysfunctional couple we used to be. GOODNESS i hated that couple. All we did was fight and we were so unhappy. Im glad were passed that! I guess weve just kind of grown up and got over all the trivial things we CONSTANTLY fought over. Well thank you for being you and putting up with me! hehe
Work tonight. Im tired but I will go and Im sure it will be fun!! I still have to call Mochaccinos and tell them i quit but I keep forgetting. i guess i need to do that but I feel so bad about quitting. I dont know why. oh well life goes on and Im over that job. Well im going write my sociology paper that Ive been putting off since last week. Yeah its due Friday but Ill be in PANAMA so i have to turn it in tomorrow or Thursday. Let me stop babbling and go. bye bye
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I hate SCHOOL!! Even more than that, I hate Calculus with a passion!!
Other than that life is pretty good. Last night went to the lake with Scott and Dave. We had fun but I froze my ass OFF! I didnt know it was going to be cold and I had on shorts...yes I know it was dumb but how was I to know it would be cold...it had been hot all day. It was nice to hang with Dave, I miss me some Dave!! Today I had a Chemistry exam, I think I did good but who knows!? Man I really dont like school. I dont know what it is about school that I dont like but it really just makes me mad to have to go. Maybe im just an angry person...haha. Tomorrow I have work 4-10. I LOVE work and I cant wait to go. Isnt that sad when I want to go to work?!? I need to find out how much I make an hour and when I get paid. I never thought to ask until my mom and Scott brought it to my attention.
PANAMA IN 3 DAYS!! I cannot wait! I need to get the hell out of here already!! Im done....love you!
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Today was a much needed FUNN day after my much needed FUN night with my baby last night!!
Chris Kaci and I went to the car show at the Pontchatrain Center. I told Leanne I would go so I could meet her boyfriend (he had a car in the show and his name is also Chris...hehe). It was fun! I was pimpin Chris' truck....put all the windows down Music UP WAYYY LOUD and dancing and yelling at some black men. the car show was 1/2 outside and 1/2 inside which was nice because well as anyone can see....it is BEAUTIFUL outside today!! Chris claims its going to rain but I dont know I dont think the clouds are gray enough! Chris thinks that Im stupid for saying that but yeah I beleive it! The car show was nice. On the way home this BIGGGG black lady next to us kept smiling and laughing at Chris...it was sooo funny I almost peed in my pants!!! She wanted that NUMBER!![Chris--->Im not going to that gas station...Im gonna get raped by that big ass black lady! HAHAHAHAHA] So back to car show...they had some nice cars and well you know theyre is always those few shitty ones. But overall it was cool. I wanted to stay for the bikini contest but my parents were boiling crawfish and I LOOOOOVE hot crawfish I dont like it cold after its been sitting I want to burn my hands trying to eat it...yummmy! Well we stayed at the crawifhs boil for what seemed to be forever a good forever but it seemed like a really long time for some reason. Now Im here at home about to study me some Chemistry b/c I have an exam tomorrow! Im sooo tired though as Im typing this my eyes keep closing. I need sleep soo desperatly! I slept ALOT over the weekend but for some reason i just can never sleep enough. Im waiting on Scott to get off and go hang out with him since I havent seen him all day. But first Im going crack open my chemistry binder and study for 2 hours before he gets off.
Well of the Chemistry!! Bye bye I love you baby!
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So yesterday Dave Danielle Scott and I went to the Sportsman Show in the DOME! It was fun for like the first 30 minutes and then I got tired and I was hungry so I got a lil cranky and I just wanted to go home but I stuck it out like the trooper that I am. I whined a lil but I tried not to make it excessive b/c I was invited and got free tickets and I could have always said No but I didnt so i had to be nice. So I tried to be as nice as I could I hope it worked. I kinda feel asleep on Scott's shoulder at the fishing pond...haha! But then we left and partied it up on Canal Street!! I wanted to go out with Leanne sooo bad but not all of us are of age and I dont think Dave and Scott wanted to go anyways! Then we came home ate McDonalds and then I went to sleep at Scotts. Ms Jodie was sick and kept getting up to get water and that kinda made things a lil difficult for us hehe. Well that was my evening yesterday.
Today is the Car Show. Christian is hoeing my out for one of his friends...yeah thanks! I think Kaci and I are going though. I wanna go to the mall and buy something! I need to go buy me some mascara. I think I might do that before we go anywhere today. Well Im going take a shower and call kaci up.
Bye bye I love you@
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So today was Mo's Pizza Fest!!! I had fun! I only stayed for like 4 1/2 hours and then asked to go home (b/c Lance told me to) but it was good. Jesse and Jessica kept checking up on me. Thanks guys! Now Im going to the Sportsman show with Scott Dave and Danielle. It should be fun!! Well who knows though?! Tomorrow Im going to the car show..yeah!! Yeah my mom wants to have a crawfish boil tomorro too. Im soo glad about that!! But who knows with my family!
What is a good brand of Mascara??? Im allergic to like TONS of make-up so i have to be really careful but I also want something thats going to make my lashes POP! Well please let me know!! thanks yall!
Well let me go get my pupster and head on out! I need to deposit my paycheck in the ATM before I can go anywhere. bye bye! i love you honey!
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So yesterday was an all around GRRREAT day!! School went by sooo quickly and I was in this great mood for some reason. I had a really good day at school which is odd for me because I usually hate school!! Then I had my 1ST DAY OF WORK AT MO'S!!! Oh my goodness it was awesome. Everyone is extremely nice and theyre so funny and so helpful. I caught on pretty quickly but it took a little of asking everyone, "Ummm what am I doing b/c honestly I dont know??" to catch it but I did. Im happy I got a job there!! I think everyone from Mo's is going to go out tonight. Im thinking of going?! yeah I might!
Mo's is having this HUGE ass block party today. They block off the streets and have band play and stuff. They said last year they had like 2000 people show up...WHHHAAATT?? So im sooo scared that Im goin to fuck up b/c were going to be extremely busy.I didnt think Lance would put me working since well it will only be my 2nd day but he did so Im going in at 12. Oh lawdy yall pray for me please! Well I need to go shower and feed the dog and what nots before I head off to work in 2 hours so I will catch you all lata. Im excited about working though b/c now I can really see what it is like.
^The only problem with me working today is I cant go with Scott Dave and Dani to Harry's and teh Sportmans show. I wish I could guys! It sucks! You guys should come visit me at Mo's. I love yall!!
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So im sitting at school BORED! My next class isnt until 1:15 and I got out of my first class at 9:30. Im glad I got out early though becuase I got to hang out with my XAVIER crew!! hehe. we got a study room in the library so we could talk. The people around us hated us. We were singing soem old ass tunes from shows like Lamb Chop Inspector Gadget and OH OH Growing Pains oh you and your blonde moments..haha!! We were WAAAAAY loud. I got some nice pics on my phone though..haha thanks to Leanne! I had lots of fun and got all my chemistry work done. lookee me...WOW! But now Im bored sitting here by myslef b/c everyone else has class. damn!! I guess I will search the web until Amanda gets out of class so she and I can finish studying for Drill. man my mom s making me stay hoem afetr school to file my FAFSA form online. She says we HAVE TO DO IT which we do but I just dont want to. man im such a baby!
This weekend as of now Im still trying to make plans. friday night I have my FIRST DAY ON THE JOB!! YAY! Dave wants us to go to the Sportsman's show, I guess Saturday during the day. I hope i dont work, Aand then Sunday Leanne wants me to go to the car show at the pontchatrain center with her b/c her b/f's car is in it and she wants someone to hang with. So I think I might do that but I dunno. Anyone want to come with me?? let me know... I still need to talk to scott about it. Well i hope this weekend is GRRREAT b/c i sure know next weekend will be. 1 WEEK TILL PANAMA!! WHOO-HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Well let me go do some homework. Oh shit I need to do my research paper for Sociology! i guess I can do that now. Well bye bye. i love you!
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Tonight was FUN terrorizing Sports stores with Dave Dani and Scott. hehe.
Okay let me vent for one sec. Yall i love yall so much but honestly I am SOOO tired of hearing about this stuff. The more you bring it up the more it is going to linger around. The more attention you give to the subject the more the subject will come up. You either have to let it go or let each other go. And MOST IMPORTANTLY show her no attention because thats what she wants...a rise out of you. If she wants to talk to him let her call and trust that he wont answer. Yes I said TRUST! The more you fight with her the longer she will be in your lives. The more you post about her or say about her on your profile the more she will call and be in your lives. LET IT GO!! Erase her name from your vocabulary. Dont talk about it and dont talk about her EVER. I know your still hurt but you must heal and you cant if this is all happening. I dont mean to hurt anyone and I am VERY VERY sorry if I do but I cant take this anymore. Talking about her and putting her down doesnt make anything any better so why waste your time and your breath. please I just want things to be fun and all honky-dory again...Now-a-days theres always that underlying tension there. I love you both. Again im sorry if I hurt anyone but after reading those comments tonight I just had to say something.
Okay well thats it. bye bye. I love you babe!
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